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It feels great to be home even if it's below freezing in our house, I haven't listened to any music since I left my apartment, and I'm sleeping on an air mattress instead of my own. I'm able to help Beth pick out her wedding dress, to visit my favorite coffee shop, to joke around about boys and life with Mallori, and eat Sunday dinner with my parents. My nephew grew so much in the past two months and doesn't seem like the sleepy little infant anymore. He can eat rice cereal now, sit upright, makes cute cooing noises, and never fails to laugh at a good game of peek-a-boo. It's really eerie how things are changing. My sister is getting married. It's about time since she's dated Nick for 7 years, but now that she's got a ring on her finger and wedding dreams in her head, it's really come to life. Although the wedding is months and months away, eventually she will no longer live in the same house as me. She won't be just a door away from me. We won't be able to pester each other about borrowing clothes or barging in when one of us is napping. We haven't gotten along all our lives, but in the past few years she has become my best friend. Sometimes I think I'm missing out on things at home when I'm away at college... My family has grown and matured and altered in so many ways and I feel like I've been absent when events, small and large, take place... I know that this isn't the case because I'm only two hours away, but the feeling lingers. I could never regret coming to Mizzou, it's the best experience I have ever had, but I wish it were possible to be in two places at once... I'm not so sure the world is ready for that just yet! :)